It Should All Be Different

This one is about my regret on how I handled a certain friendship / not friendship over a couple decades. This individual and I crossed paths in a number of ways over the course of junior high, high school and college. We were close at times, but we had a unique ability to get under each other’s skin. After about 10 years, we wound up at odds.

Long story short, several years ago, he was murdered by a jealous ex-boyfriend of a woman he was seeing. This song came in the aftermath of trying to absorb it all. It’s a little non-linear, because I’m processing two things: one, the horror of the situation (“it should all be different”); and two, the crystal clear realization that I blew something that was a lot of effort and should’ve been a bigger part of my life.

I’m certain his response to this song would be: “smh…here we go, he took this situation and wrote a song about himself!” And I’d say…”wait, wait…I’m processing real emotion here, however it comes off!” And…we’d both be right, in our own way. Would we resolve it? Um…no.

He was beloved by a lot of people.

We took off “Moving in Circles” this week. Thanks again for listening.