Leave Me In

This one dates back to my first year out of college, related to a break-up between Ashley (my wife) and me. It deals with still being attached to someone’s life, even after a relationship ends. Ashley recommended this one as we approach a milestone anniversary in this posting period (for those of you not close to the site, she’s the real engine behind everything that goes on here).

I struggled on this one for 2 decades, because I wrestled with getting 3 concepts reflected: leaving someone in your life; walking away in tears yourself; and having the other party walk away in tears, reluctantly. The last one is what I tried to build the song around—both parties are upset, but they’re not sure how to handle the situation because the person you usually turn to is the source of the hurt.

We took off “Jump Up and Down” this week. Thanks again for listening.

Still Want Me

Some songs take years to plow through and adjust/fix, and some are written quickly. The “feel” songs are usually written quickly, just reflecting the mood. This is one of those, written quickly in the dark one night, using a different sound on the keyboard (not my thing, usually).

These usually either fail drastically or do pretty well. I think this one held up, but we’ll see. Certainly it’s a little different, and it obviously wasn’t first out of the box.

We took off “So Let Down” this time. Thanks for listening.

We Might Have To Wait

This one’s about turning down a relationship opportunity because all is not right with yourself.    It came to me because I seemed to run into an inordinate number of people that wanted to work on themselves.  Of course, in time, I realized that “I need to work on myself first” was code for “I’d rather be by myself than with you.”    After encountering this excuse entirely too often, I finally wrote a song about it.

When I was recording this one, it resonated with me a different way.  I’m in a quiet space in my life, and having that space has been really healthy.    I hope I’ve captured some of that feeling in the song.

As a result of loading the new entry, I’ve pulled down “Something Borrowed” and the related blog.

Neon Lights

This is an older one, about me sitting in bars backed by neon lighting in my mid-20’s, failing on a ton of levels. I don’t know if I was lost, but that’s the reference in the first bridge before the chorus (“Nobody knows where I am”…including me, metaphorically).

I struggled with speed on this one (again), and I overhauled it a couple years back. It’s gone through a few iterations.

We took off “It Should All Be Different” this week. Thanks for listening.

It Gets to Me

This is a small song that was buried on a cassette tape for years, which almost never escaped. I kind of forgot it existed, and I only stumbled upon it while preparing for the project. That said, the more I listened to the song, the more I liked it. I enjoy the simplicity, the quick double rhyming scheme (LET it BE/GETS to ME), and all that space. It’s just emotion and a background guitar.

I took off “Yes I Do” this week. I appreciate the support.